In other words, this is a 'Fuck You' post....feel free to add your current 'fuck you's in the comments.
I know a lot of what I'm feeling right now could , at least in part, be blamed on PMS. I freely admit I'm in the midst of hormonal mood swings that turn me into a bitch unlike which has ever before been seen, but also can reduce me to a puddle of tears in less than a heartbeat. Mood swings like that are exhausting.
First off....FUCK YOU cancer!!!! I just got word yesterday that my Uncle Paul's cancer has returned. Doctors think it may have spread to his brain this time. I kind of fazed out when my Mom got into telling me the details, but things don't look good. Best case, He'll have another year with us, but if it is in his brain, it's more like 3 months. This just SUCKS. I'm not even close to that part of the family, but they're still family, I still love them, I'm still crying for them. I've already lost too many family members to cancer. Granted, it hasn't been many, but even one is way too many. It's really fucking hard to watch someone die of cancer. FUCK YOU CANCER!
Secondly.....FUCK YOU NEWS! This morning some woman died of the H1N1 virus. Yes, death is sad, but it happens and that's not what I'm pissed about. The News kept saying "A pregnant woman has died of the H1N1 virus"....then a few minutes later they said the woman delivered the baby several days ago. Hey, assholes, a pregnant woman DID NOT DIE. A woman who recently gave birth died. Saying "A pregnant woman has died of the H1N1 virus" implies that she was pregnant at the moment of death and that the baby died with her. I was on the verge of tears thinking about that baby's death. I don't deal well with infant death, and I certainly don't need any more emotional roller coasters right now, so FUCK YOU NEWS!
Third....FUCK YOU to my cold!!! More specifically, FUCK YOU to the parents who sent their sick kid to school last week. That kid gave it's cold to my kid, and my kid ever so generously shared that cold with everyone else in the house. Fucking lovely. Now I'm sitting here with absolutely zero energy, emotionally drained, snot dripping from my nose, and clogged up sinuses. Pretty picture, huh?
Can I crawl in bed now and ignore the world for a few days?