Friday, February 05, 2010

I am okay...

and I've even been knitting a little bit :)

DH may have left me, but now, I'm feeling good about it. I feel empowered by this. I'm single now (yes, technically still married, but we're not together and never will be together again) and I no longer have a partner to answer to. I don't have to consider him for everything anymore. Yes, we'll be connected for eternity because we have three children together, but I am my own person now, not just a wife and mother. This is a good thing. I've been bettering myself for me, and I feel great. I'm loosing weight, and feeling more confident. I've been getting glimpses of the vibrant, confidant woman I used to be before the depression changed me. I'm looking for a job now, so cross your fingers for me and wish me luck. It's no longer a question of IF I can do this, because now I know that I WILL succeed. For my kids, I can do anything.

And, as for knitting, a few days after Christmas, I decided to start knitting up all of those seemingly millions of worsted weight yarn scraps leftover from other various projects that I had laying around. I'm using them to knit an Entrelac blanket. I'm using each color one at a time until it runs out, then I start another color. I threw all of the scraps into a big shopping bag and I'm grabbing new balls at random. I cast on 210 stitches and made my base triangles/squares 10 stitches wide. This blanket is one of the ugliest things I've ever seen, but I love it. HERE is a pic I took of it on January 28th, It's a little bit bigger and more of an eyesore


Walden said...

It's not ugly at all. Good luck on the job front. It's nice to hear things are moving in a positive manner for you.

Shorty said...

So glad you are okay!

Good luck and best wishes on your bright and brilliant future.

I like the blanket alot. I think the colors are working up very nicely!